Thursday, April 17, 2008

When I'm Unsure

Sometimes, I feel
for whatever reason
that I'm not ________

Then I think
about the fact
that I have SO MUCH!

I am fortunate
to be loved
by the best of the best

I am blessed
to be able
to love them in return

Wowsers

Life is pretty good right now. I mean, really, I think it always is. My perception has become brighter and brighter lately, and I'd like to keep it that way.

I just wrapped the first film I've ever been involved in as a Producer of any sort. Some would say I was a Line Producer. I'd say I was probably more of an Associate Producer. Whatever I was, I learned a great deal, and much of that was through making mistakes. Nobody got hurt, though, so it's all good. ;}

I connected to a LOT of incredible souls, though! One of the Executive Producers (Phil) and I have even been working on a story/treatment for a film for the past couple weeks, and I'm really excited about it. I can't say much more than that; we'll be getting it copyrighted tomorrow! Suffice it to say, it's environmentally-themed Sci Fi, and it's quite good. Phil flies out on Friday, and our film just wrapped Tuesday, so everything is really buzzing along!

I just signed a lease for my new apartment in the Los Feliz area of LA, and I'm looking forward to living in an interesting neighborhood within walking/biking distance of excellent friends and TONS of cool stuff. I woke up with the words "rooftop garden" scampering about in the forefront of my brain this morning, so when I pick up my keys, I'll run it by the manager. The landlady is awesome, too: we totally hit it off. This was the first place I saw, out of five (two of the five buildings were owned by her and had multiple units), and I just had to come back. The vibe was just right, and it's a perfect location. I'm super excited!

Since I don't have to worry about apartment hunting, I'll be going to SF earlier, too, so I can have more time with my loved ones! Yay!

I've been working with a fire troupe I want to join, too: Machina Candeo. They're awesome, both as a group and as individuals.

I'm also picking up momentum on the nonprofit organization.... Stay tuned!!

Live your dreams. :}

Namaste, ya'll.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Door after door

"Everything happens for a reason," some people say. I suppose that's true, if you want it to be.

I take a bit more of a scientific perspective on it, marveling at the feat of coincidence as astonishing mathematical revelation rather than a great "something" affecting the course of life.

I still ponder energy and the effect it has on us. Radiation is energy, right? It has the power to both cause AND treat cancer. It comes in many forms, and those forms can be harnessed for good or mis-handled for destruction.

We are electric beings: synapses constantly firing in a massive, exquisite tangle of cells with myriad functionality. Sometimes, as I experienced a few weeks ago, a person will join a circle of others holding hands, and discharge a spark that will travel through each one. Even upon the apparent death of the heart, we surge electricity through a patient in order to revive him. And it often works.

We are like transistors, no matter whether we notice it: always harnessing and controlling electrical currents. We eat food so we'll have more... energy!

The more positive energy we have, the more doors we open for ourselves. When we persevere and strive for the greater good of, peace to all of, and harmony with all of all our fellow beings on this planet, including ourselves, the possibilities are limitless.