The Year of Infinite Possibilities

2008. Turn that number 8 on its side, and what do you see?

Over the last year, and especially the last couple months or so, many things have presented to me that anything is possible, all over the map. Not that it isn't always that way; I think I'm opening more to it, both consciously and subconsciously.

I'm having trouble with the money thing. I know that's not all there is to life, however, when I really don't have any in my wallet, I don't have savings, I'm pushing 30, and I'm set up for the biggest move I've ever made (though, granted, since I am subletting till the end of April, the bulk of it will be later, thank gawd! And my parents have been of great assistance...), it works on me a bit. I have the option of more help from my family, and they have come through so much in this already, however I feel like they've helped me out a lot over the years, and I feel less independent than I am comfortable with. Gotta sit with that and just be grateful, I suppose. I am hyper aware of this sort of thing, and I know it will all be fine; I have this intrinsic worry factor that I struggle with, though. I think there is a little bit of self worth stuff mixed in as well. How can I measure my self worth by my net worth? That's ridiculous, and yet, I am SO self-conscious of it. Even being broke, I am more privileged than 90% of the world! Why is it so difficult to genuinely take these things into account?

C'mon, I'm embarking on the adventure of a lifetime: I'm moving to LA to make movies. Holy crap, I can actually do that! In many ways, with what we are doing, each and every one of us is experiencing the same thing. It's all about tearing down those walls in our way and motivating ourselves with the great freedoms we have been granted as human beings. How is your life changing for you? How has it changed over the last year? What changes would you like to implement in the coming year? Are you on a path to making your dreams come true, and are you fortunate enough to have people who have supported you along the way?

Our lives are full of positive and negative pulls: it's all a matter of perspective. I have so much more to be thankful for than anything else. In fact, if I just let myself relax into the way things are for just a minute, I can see that I am rich beyond all measure, even if my bank account is scant and my debts are piled high. Giving up is not an option anyway, right, so what have I got to lose?

I would do well to listen to myself more often.

Just say YES, my friends.

Happy New Year, and may 2008 bring infinite joy to you all.