Negative Commentary

I welcome anything people have to say about what I write, and I would suggest doing so in a constructive, mature way. I am far more receptive to that.

Besides, if a person doesn't have the balls to even leave their name on such puerile (ooh, lookie, I have fiddy-cent words, too!) venom, why would I think they really even care, anyway? My blogs are a personal statement of self, and my path to betterment of that self. I put my thoughts in the public eye with the intention of inspiring others and gaining mutual support in this life, this thing we call being human. I'm not perfect, and neither is anyone else. I constantly strive to be a better person, not a better-than-you person, and that's what my previous blog was about.

Perhaps I should be more clear in the future, and perhaps (dare I risk sounding supercilious yet again, tsk tsk!) some people might consider doing the same.

Believe

That's all we can do.

Whatever we believe ultimately becomes reality for us. And reality exists for no one other than ourselves.

I have fallen off the mediation and exercise wagons, but September and the impending equinox have me sinking into some strong motivation to generally re-shape my life. I am not going to stop doing the things I love; in fact, I am turning more attention towards myself and relinquishing myself into the throes of what feeds my soul.

I thought it might help to put a statement of commitments out there, since things like this being out in the public domain can act as a solidifier for me.

Here goes:

1. I will meditate every day.
2. I will exercise regularly and treat my body with respect.
3. I will not beat myself up.
4. I will allow myself to just be, without attachment or aversion.
5. I will follow my dreams.
6. I will be as good as humanly possible to myself and everyone else.
7. I will look more deeply into others' eyes.
8. I will take a moment for myself.
9. I will proceed with joy.
10. I will love without fear.

I may think of more, though I like the number 10, and I think this is plenty to work on.

I believe everyone has a right to follow on their most joyous path. I am fortunate to have the opportunity to do so.

If I stray, slap me! Hey, I said I wouldn't beat myself up.

All in my head

If those stories I get caught up in are all just in my head, I might as well pay attention only to the ones that empower me.

I don't mention songs much or post lyrics anymore, but honestly, the song "What If" by Coldplay is what really speaks to my general concerns about finding a partner. And finding a partner seems to be a bigger deal to me than I've given it credit for. I just want to get it right, not only by choosing the right person, but also by making the right decisions while with them (or preparing to possibly be).

I'm tired of living in fear, but I'm working through it. I'm feeling my "work in progress" status pretty strongly lately, which is a good sign, because that key word progress is definitely what I'm marching with. I'm excited about things like my film, joining a gym, my new path I'm taking with acting, and about the general overhaul I'm succeeding with regarding my life. And that life is pretty good. I am working to purge the excess.